vansPALEROSE

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Gold Teeth by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Gold Teeth

The doctors said be careful, kid you're too rough, and your bloody knees can't hold you up any more but what did they know they haven't lived not like me they haven't seen the things I've seen smelled the thi- tasted the thi- felt the thi- nothing. They don't know anything So I said shut up, Manny You don't know anything and I hopped out of the chair and his smoker's cough chased me out of the clinic I ran down the street to where the river met the bed and my friends waved me down to a concrete island surrounded by broken lampposts and discarded news papers We smoked cigarettes like twelve-y

Eat You Up by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Eat You Up

Old times obviously weren't great considering we let them get old get grey and fade away… nobody wants to be here but nobody wants to leave they say home is where the heart is but for us that isn't the case we take taxi rides back to empty apartments where nostalgia eats us alive where the milk goes sour and we have to throw it away but we hate it because we're disposing of yet another spoiled thing something of the past something we should've drank up absorbed reli

Nights in White Satin by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Nights in White Satin

You called me late last night I could almost hear your red swollen eyes with tears docking on your eyelids you asked me how I was doing I knew what was coming next I knew you too well I had 10 years to figure you out and here you were: Sitting Standing Laying God-knows-where sipping something with ice cubes and asking for my address through a curly wire glued to my ear I could feel my heart melting inside o

billy corgan by vansPALEROSE, literature

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billy corgan

Too tired to be afraid of the dark. Too tired to live, to think, to breathe, eat, drive, cry. Too tired to sleep. The only option is to die. To die an inconvenient death, at an inconvenient time. Die unconventionally. Die with purpose. Die with nobility. Die and be embarrassed, because you're not around to suffer the ridicule. Die and be done. Close the book, lock the door, put the lid on it. Finish it, be done. Close your eyes. Close the fleshy curtains and let your actors retire. Let them sleep behind your lids. Backstage, there is no lying. No need for costume change. No rehearsed lines, practiced acti

Everything In Between by vansPALEROSE, literature

I'm In Love With.. by vansPALEROSE, literature

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I'm In Love With..

I'm in love with messy hair. And shirts that fit funny and too many bracelets. I'm in love with large glasses and pale skin, and spindly fingers that dance across bare skin, and the feeling you get when they dance across your lower back; lulling you to sleep ontop of them. I'm in love with kisses and laughter. Kissing is scary and it feels like you're on a rollercoaster (I've never been on a rollercoaster, but a girl can dream), and it's a gut wrenching feeling that leaves you in shambles because your body isn't being held after because they always go home or make you go home. But I don't want to go back to my house. I want to stay at home;

Don't Touch Me, by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Don't Touch Me,

I have realized why I attract broken people It's because I'm broken myself With my chalk secrets and starless mind I'm really just a mess of bones and skin Don't bother with me, because I'm only going to bring you down I fuck with people Because I've been fucked with My mind's so tampered I don't know what is what I don't have loved ones No family, no dear friends I am alone. I am scared And I am alone I am homeless I am sheltered But I am homeless And no one understands I just want a set of fingers to interlock with mine I want someone Just one person to say five measly words And I don't want to ask them to say it I nee

Suitcases by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Suitcases

I live out of suitcases Because I'm too scared to unpack Unpack the feelings inside Unpack somewhere that isn't "home" Unpack the regret; the second thoughts Unpack the guilt Unpack the hurt Unpack the memories Unpack what's left What's left of me What I have been reduced to Realize I'm starting over I'm being re-born But I still have all I've learned I'm just a little lost for now But I'll find my way I'll take the hands of those I love And they'll lead me Take me where I need to go Show me the right direction So that one day I can find a spot To put my things And burn my bags And I won't ever leave again Because I'll

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Gold Teeth by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Eat You Up by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Eat You Up

Nights in White Satin by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Nights in White Satin

billy corgan by vansPALEROSE, literature

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billy corgan

Everything In Between by vansPALEROSE, literature

I'm In Love With.. by vansPALEROSE, literature

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I'm In Love With..

Don't Touch Me, by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Don't Touch Me,

Suitcases by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Cursed With This Body by vansPALEROSE, literature

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Cursed With This Body

These heliophobic hands {fear of sunlight} Have only one ambition: To leave their fingerprints On the back of your hands And these echard eyes of mine {water in the soil not available to plants} Are endless oceans And they just seek shore On the brink of your eyelashes These laciniform lips {shaped like a fringe} Are only parted Because that's how you made them And that's how they'll always be This sacrarium skin {place where sacred objects are kept} Is molded So that it fits perfectly against yours And only yours This hambled heart {to mutilate a dog by cutting of the balls of its feet} Beats much too fast And it's rhythm c

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June 21
Canada
Deviant for 16 years
meattothewolves.tumblr.com
She / Her

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^{seventeen
senior
residing in an unbeloved foreign city
cries a lot
<3}

Current Residence: Oakville, Ontario (I finally changed this 6 months later..)
Favourite genre of music: Indie, Rock, Acoustic, Punk, Ska
Favourite photographer: Tim Walker, Robert Longo
Favourite style of art: Demonic, warped, enchanting
Operating System: Windows Vista
MP3 player of choice: iPod Touch (3rd Gen)
Favourite cartoon character: Remy Etienne LeBeau (Gambit), Rogue

Favourite Visual Artist

Zdzislaw Beksinski

Favourite Movies

When Harry Met Sally, I Love You Man, 500 Days of Summer

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Muse, Modest Mouse, Bon Iver, Ayreon, Straylight Run

Favourite Writers

Edgar Allen Poe, Douglas Coupland, Miriam Toews

Favourite Gaming Platform

PC (it's a platform, shut up)

Tools of the Trade

Pencils and keyboard ;)

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vansPALEROSE

Feb 22, 2010

Hello

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I haven't posted in a while. Follow me, please? :heart: (It's just my little tumblr account) http://meattothewolves.tumblr.com/

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vansPALEROSE

Feb 17, 2010

come down now,

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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S6aOmRMRZm8 Beautiful cover, of a great song by The Postal Service. (: This makes me almost as happy as "New Slang" by The Shins.

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vansPALEROSE

Feb 8, 2010

planningplanningplanning,

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Various plans for the future: Finish grade 12, graduate, attend SNHU. Finish grade 12 in only one semester, go right to SNHU after exams. Finish grade 12 in only one semester, take the next 6 months to work full-time. Go to SNHU in September. In any scenario, I will be going to SNHU. It's just a matter of WHEN. Seeing as I am able to attain all of my credits in my first semester of grade 12, I see it being logical for me to - instead of taking a whole semester and spending it in school - get a full-time job, or go to SNHU. Any way I do it, I'll be with the one I love ultimately. The variable is just how soon I'm getting to him. -     Va